Monday, April 15, 2013

1st Day of Preschool

My precious boy,

Today I dropped you off at preschool for the very 1st time. You looked so big out on the playground with the other kids. You were so excited to go this morning, and didn't even shed a tear while giving me a big hug, and kiss. You said "I will wait for you at home mommy". My heart broke, and swelled with pride at the same time. Everything has been so easy with you. You are a dream. Our dream come true. The tear less face didn't last for long, as I turned around to get one last glance at you before leaving, tears were streaming down your face, as you called out "mommy!". You didn't run to me though, just stood there watching as I left. I was crying too, and it was so hard to walk away. I knew if I came back, the 2nd goodbye would be twice as hard. It took everything in me, praying so hard that your teacher would notice you, and pick you up for a snuggle and reassurance. I peered through the window, my eyes wet, and watched as my prayer was answered. Your teacher found you almost instantly, picked you up and gave you a big hug. You stopped crying. I did too. You held her hand and followed her everywhere. You went to the garden which I'm sure you were looking for "ladybugs". I watched in amazement that you my son, are mine. I said a silent prayer of gratitude that I have been given the gift to raise you and watch you grow. You are so loved Liam. We are so proud of you, and what a sweet spirit you possess.

As I walked to my car, I reflected on bringing you home for the hospital. I can't believe the time has come for this milestone. It's all gone too fast, and I worry that I haven't embedded every memory of you into my mind. I know that today, my love, will never leave my memory. Your bright blue eyes, filled with excitement, nervousness, and hesitation. I will remember those eyes forever. You are so cherished my sweet boy. We love you.